So far, 2010 feels just like it did in 2007
That was something I was not anticipating and I do not want, in all honesty. I was so close to being who I wanted to be, but it just seems like this is the place where I excel. And I want someone to understand that, but I don’t ever want to talk about it which becomes something of a paradox.
I just feel like acting up and being difficult and picking up bad habits, when I know that it’s the direct opposite of what makes me happy.
And more than anything I don’t want to be made to feel guilty or selfish for how I feel or what I want, I know you only do it for my own good, but just fucking don’t.
(and for the record, although I despise myself for it, I can’t help it. I hate her)
